vomiting thoughts

i'm sitting in my office that smells like spilled coffee, ins ins ins ins music is coming out of my laptop and somehow on this beautiful fall day, i'm inside trying to write yet another paper. this is my master's paper....my big thesis statement. pfff. i hate writing acedemically.

last night i met with two guys from the grad dept. the capricorn and the leo, to discuss luther, opitz and gottsched...three philosophers (if you want to catagorize martin luther as a philosopher)....they will be on my exam in january. this fucking exam is already giving me nightmares. (this is a photo of from R to L -leo, capricorn, sagitarius...and me of course...the coolest taurus)

anyways on the way back a big rat jumped out of the bushes AT us. it was almost surreal...the disgustingness of it all.

people here, are tough to figure out. they are not solid. everyone is kind of out for themselves. i've made three friends this whole year....and they are all girls! --that's probably why i find it so tough. two aries and a scorpio. the scorpio is not as solid as i would like her to be. she 's so caught up in her 'hipster' image that...behind the image is emptyness...like there's nothing there. all these 'artsy' types...i ask them...well what do you do that is artisitic? do you blog? do you take pictures? do you paint? how are you creative? do you you make music? play with clay? what do you do besides smoke pot, dress cool and be a silent judging snob?

i don't know....i think when we look back on this blog thing years from now....we'll be really happy that we wrote...that we documented our lives....that we kept working our imagination. that we took photos and put ourselves center stage in our own lives. that's just my two cents for today.
and i just successfully procrastinated for a half hour vomiting these thoughts down.